Have we stopped or just a paused ?? Can't bear this anymore

Just took one step
to go to a long journey with you,
But there was thundering and flashing
So no long we could go,
Since it was gonna heavy rain....
Do we have to stop or this would be just a pause...???
No idea..I am waiting
Wi' burning thoughts...
Cause I know all these happened since of my fault...
I know what ever either stop or the pause
will ruin the journey
And will  be the turning point of me
And bring me lonely....
No more hopes ,no more joys
No more laughters or the tears to shed
No more anything only the pain ...
Journey was stopped or a just a pause...
Have got no idea....
Since there is still the rain......